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Tuesday, 05 May 2020 09:26

Julie's vocation story

 Julie Adlawan

Mabuhay! (Be Alive) It has been a great blessing to me to be with the Missionaries of God’s Love Sisters for seven years now.  My yes to consecrated life was a slow journey. It all started from my spark of interest in joining a choir in our parish. I was a rather a desperate singer, and out-of-tune when I was a child, but I eventually became a choir leader for three choirs for around eleven years. I had thought that I just wanted to become a singer for mass and weddings but things turned out to be beyond that.

I learned that I was there to grow as a person starting from knowing how much God loves me. I eventually realised that he sees me personally and calls me to a particular path, inviting me to deepen in his love and then express this love by giving my time, talents, gifts, career opportunities and sexuality back to him for the sake of his will.

I thought it was enough to have and lead a youth ministry, be an active member of a charismatic community, to lead choirs, enjoy the company of friends, and having a well-paid job. I thought I only needed one thing more to be complete, and that was to get married. But for a reason that I couldn’t immediately fathom I left all these things and went back to my hometown for 3 months to spend some time in discernment.

I observed my cousins who are happily married, went to church every day, prayed the rosary and watched religious programs which inspired me. I could see the beauty of getting married and have a family and of giving myself to Jesus in a more exclusive way. However, I began to ask myself, “Julie, if you were to choose only one thing to live out for the rest of your life, what would it be”?

If my answer were based on the hope it brings to humanity, and the joy and beauty it brings to the world, I can say that both are equally attractive. However, I began to realise that my experience of a personal revelation of God’s love to me was too alluring. I was invited not to look at the cost, but to desire what it promises –to be fulfilled not by a man but by the Divine.  This is vocation story, and for this I give thanks for this beautiful life God has called me to live.

Julie Adlawan